Rough Draft / Under Construction
Long before the trial and for years after the trial, Wiley tried and tried to create things he could use to injure Aaron. Even ten years later he still was at it. Aaron never again could meet someone or open an email without having to be prepared for the possibility of this person having some connection to the people who ruined his life and were doing their best to ruin it further.
Like the time ten years after the trial when the phone rang and he pushed the speaker button and said his name. A woman on the other end asked if he was the author of the web site about problems in medicine. He said he was. He didn't know he was about to experience the mechanism that protects and enables pedophilia and other types of abuse in Catholic bureaucracies.
The woman said her name was Sandy Sander. Later, a search on her name would reveal that she was a cute blonde who had graduated from college three years earlier and currently was the Youth Director for the March of Dimes where her specialty appeared to be programs protecting babies.
She told a long, anguished story about how her father had been badly treated and left to die by a doctor at St. Virgin Hospital. The doctor had not responded to the call for help for two days. Family members sat waiting, watching as her father deteriorated for two days. Whenever they asked someone when a doctor was going to see him, they were told that the doctor had been notified and was aware of her father's condition. It was over the weekend, and the doctor did not arrive until Monday. She said that when he arrived, he was upset, treated her father rudely and brushed off his family even more rudely. And after all that, he offered no treatment. When Sandy told how rapidly he was deteriorating, the doctor told her she isn't a doctor and doesn't know what she is talking about.
Sandy told Aaron that later one of the nurses wondered out loud why the family didn't complain. It was the first time it occurred to her that they could. So now her family lawyer was filing a complaint. Aaron asked with whom that complaint was being filed. She didn't know, but she said he also was talking to the board. But when asked, she didn't know which board. When Aaron asked the name of the physician who was so rude and who she felt caused her father's death, she could not remember.
She was an otherwise well meaning woman who had been persuaded that Aaron was an evil person with whom they needed help. They persuaded her that she would be doing God's work if she pretended to be in need of Aaron's help and telephoned him and got him to say things they could use to injure him.
She asked Aaron what had happened to him. He paused for a bit. He mentioned that it was a dangerous for him to talk about. She asked if he had been injured. Yes. Was it accidental? No. Did you fully recover? No. The injuries are permanent? Yes. Were there witnesses? Yes.
She asked, "Why did you write your site?"
"I became aware of problems in medicine."
"How did you become aware?"
"Through my own and other people's experiences first. And then through searching to try to figure out how these things could happen and why there is no record of them anywhere in medicine."
"What kind of experiences?"
"Injuries. Bad outcomes in general."
"You had a bad outcome?"
"Doesn't everyone sooner or later?"
"How bad was yours?"
"What happened to you?"
"I've been sued twice by people trying to prevent me from telling anyone."
"Who sued you?"
"A hospital and a nurse."
"This happened in a hospital?"
"I can't tell you that."
"Where is it located?"
"I don't want to get in trouble."
"Does it have a religious affiliation?"
"You know, I never would have thought that was relevant until I had met other victims."
"Was it Catholic?"
"So was mine."
"Was it on the east side of town?"
"I just can't talk about that."
"Was it at St. Virgin?"
He was so taken aback he stopped and said nothing for a long pause. Then he asked, "Why would you ask that?"
"I did a search on Crime and St. Virgin."
"Your name popped up."
"In what connection did my name pop up?"
"It said they sued you. So you were the victim of a crime at St. Virgin."
"This wasn't something I said, was it?"
"It said they sued you."
"This wasn't something on any of my sites, was it? This was someone else reporting on . . whatever?"
"So St. Virgin is where it happened?"
"No one ever has asked me questions like this before."
"I just figured that since we both had problems in the same place, we could help each other."
"I'll do what I can for you, but . . . "
"What exactly happened to you?"
"I guess you've already read that."
"I didn't read it. What was it?"
"Sex abuse and violence while I was tied down and helpless."
"While you were in the hospital?"
"Where in the hospital?"
"An operating room."
"Were there witnesses?
"So there are people who can testify for you."
"It would be extremely rare for someone in medicine to testify for a patient."
She tried to get him to name the witnesses "to see if any were the same as on my case." She tried to get him to name the surgeon. She tried to get him to help her unite people to go after St. Virgin. He told her that going after one specific institution or person in medicine was dangerous. Talking about problems in many hospitals was safe. Talking about problems in one was dangerous. Finally, he said that he was going to have to create and memorize some answers to give if anyone else ever asked these questions again.
He was used to taking calls from injured patients desperate to figure out how it is that the medical system can be so unified and monolithic in turning against patients it has injured. They ask about how to get their records when no one in medicine will release them. They ask about how to get treated when no one will treat them. They why no one will treat them. They ask if there is anyone they can complain to. Unfortunately, there is not - at least not anyone on their side, not anyone who will try to help them.
But they don't ask Aaron about himself. And they don't try to get him to identify anyone. They themselves are wary of identifying the people who have injured them. Sometimes they are wary about identifying themselves. They have been warned that they can be sued. They understand Aaron's position without needing him to explain it. They are in it too.
So this person was unlike most of the other people who call in response to his site. This person was trying to get him to say things that could be used against him. This was not new to him. Wiley had persuaded people to do this numerous times. He never succeeded and he never would succeed, because Aaron was innocent, and Aaron also wasn't saying to anyone anywhere anything that could give Wiley the tools to attack again, but Wiley kept trying.
Aaron had been through this with Wiley enough that he did not have to call a lawyer to to figure out an appropriate response. He asked Ms. Sander if she might be interested in being contacted if ever there was an event promoting patient safety. She said she would. He told her the notice would be sent by email. She gave him her email address. He sent her this letter by email.
Sorry that today I could not answer your questions about
the identity of the hospital in which I was injured. At one time I had managed
to remove from the Internet all vestiges of any connection between me and any
hospital that might not want to be identified as having anything to do with me.
You asked about St. Virgin. The fact that St. Virgin and some people who work
there caused there to be on the web references to the legal actions they took
against me should not be construed as an indication of where or by whom I was
injured. I have been to many hospitals. I have gone to great lengths to erase
any possibility of anyone figuring out which ones, except in cases where the
hospitals would not care.
Never before has someone telephoned me and tried to get me to name any hospital in which I may have had a bad experience. Now that you have I am working on a stock response in case it ever happens again, something like, “No information on the web should be construed as an indication of where or by whom I was injured. I have gone to great lengths to eradicate any information that could enable anyone to find out. I can make no response whatsoever to questions that attempt to find out.” I hope that is the gist you got from what I said to you on the phone.
My work on patient safety is completely devoted to expanding understanding of the problems that kill and/or injure so many patients unnecessarily each year. I spend no time trying to do anything about what was done to me, other than cleaning up some loose ends with the lawyers who were supposed to defend me. The people who ruined my life are well connected, devoid of scruples, and willing to go to any length. It will be uncommonly good luck if I manage to avoid further injuries from them. All I can do is try to stay out of their way while I continue to do my duty to do what I can to make patients everywhere safer.
Any efforts that other patients might make to point a finger at any specific hospital I would have to avoid. But efforts to make patients safer over a wider geographic range, and including healthcare settings further ranging than just hospitals, would be interesting to me.
Sorry to have to send such a long disclaimer, but I believe I need to make a record of the content of our phone call. I think I also should make sure that I made clear during our conversation the direction of my work. If the above isn’t your recollection of what we discussed, let me know soon while it still is fresh in our minds. If ever I am asked by anyone if I ever told anyone about things you asked about, I will need to have accurate notes as to what was said. One party has vowed to maintain a vendetta against me for the rest of his life, and he has a habit of grabbing hold of fuzzy memories and finessing them into misleading and inaccurate indictments. So I have to be careful and vigilant and keep accurate records.
I’m sorry about what happened to your father. I am sorry there isn’t anyplace I can direct you for help. I hope my site might have been of some small help.
She was only the latest of the innocent people Wiley had managed to persuade that bad was good. He could stand with God and their church and a tearful nurse behind them pretending to be in need of protection from the evil Aaron. In some communities people sign up for sides without looking to see who really is evil. It is not just some bishop somewhere protecting a couple of Priests who are pedophiles. It is a larger community of people for whom the only real ethic is loyalty, the first and most primitive ethic. The one that must be tempered in order for civilization to be civil, just and peaceful.
One time Wiley had a woman contact Aaron through email saying how much she liked his site. The corresponded a few times and then she started wondering if he might like to get together. There were some dozens of people who approached in different ways with different guises trying to get him to say anything that could be used against him. So he never was able to be free and open with anyone. He had to be suspicious of everyone. Like one time when he received an email from a college freshman asking for help with a paper.
Hello. Is it at all possible that you could send me what
under the "Psycho pharmaceuticals / psychiatric medications" section
on your web page? I would like to quote you in
one of my papers, but I need an email source.
The specific paragraphs she wanted emailed to her contained the sentence, "If you get raped in a hospital, everyone tells you to see a therapist, take a drug and get over it, rather than rise up and scream about a healthcare system that allowed that to be done to you. . . " Since the example was about sex abuse in a hospital, he was concerned.
Her email address said bsu.edu. He looked that up. There were a number of universities with the same initials. On the Internet he found a freshman with her same name at Ball State University. The school paper there had written an article about how she had wanted to paint her body because that was different from wearing the school colors. She painted "BSU" on her front and "Chirp, chirp" on her back so that when the guys threw her up in the air all you saw was chirp, chirp on her back, which is a school cheer. On her page on a social networking site there was a provocative photo of her lying on her back looking toward the camera. Next to the photo she reported that currently her mood was "frisky."
She was from southern Indiana. That was close enough to Cincinnati for there to be a connection. So he replied:
Hi. BSU? Is that Ball State University? Is this a paper
for a class? Might it be published? I’m happy to help people writing papers.
Although, I am in the position of having to ask a couple of questions.
The signature on your email doesn’t have a phone or snail mail address, something usually appended to emails I receive. And I’m in the position of having to be curious about people who write making certain kinds of requests.
My position results from being under siege by an unscrupulous, overzealous lawyer who is friends with people who committed crimes against me. He has vowed to maintain a vendetta against me for the rest of my life since I complained about those crimes. That is unprofessional conduct for a lawyer for which he could be punished by the state bar association, but he does it anyway.
He persuades unsuspecting, well-meaning people that I am a villain and gets them to email me or message me or telephone me to try to get me to say things that he can use against me. Emailing a quote from a web page is an unusual request. I’ve read thousands of papers in my life, both on and off line, and never have seen a source referenced by an email address.
Unfortunately, that puts me in the position of wondering if having the quote emailed, rather than copying it from the web page, could be a ploy to separate it from the disclaimer on the web page that explains that the views on the page are not the views of the author but only are constructs created for people needing controversial topics for persuasive speeches.
Even with that disclaimer included in the email, it would create an opportunity for that attorney to stand up in court saying to me, “Did you or did you not email this statement to this person?”
It is a shame that someone who sacrifices as much as I do to try to make patients safer has to be so defensive. You probably have nothing to do with anything I have described above, but I am in the position of having to worry that you could. So I guess the best response I can give to you is to say that you have the quote from the web page and you have my email address, but I think you’d be better off attributing the quote to the URL: http://www.godsdoctor.com/persuasive_speech_topics.htm.
Such a simple request that you’ve made and such a long, complicated response I’ve had to make. Most of my email responses are about three sentences long. Yours raised possible legal problems for me. So it needed to be longer. Sorry about that.
The passage you want to quote contains issues that I care about and am glad to see someone exploring. I will be happy to do what I can to further thinking and/or writing on these issues. I just have to be careful about how I do that. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help.
She wrote back the following note. After he read it he printed out a copy and took it into the next room to read to Karen.
Thank you for your response. Yes, I am a Ball State
paper I am writing is for my freshman English Class. It not be
published or anything, but it will be graded by my teacher. For the
paper, I am writing on the use of alternative therapies as opposed to
psychiatric drugs. I found the idea for my paper by looking at your
list of persuasive speech topics. After your reply, I understand why
you may not be able to send me that quote by email. I reassure you
that I am not trying to use this quote against you. I really liked
the point you made, and I wanted to include that quote in my paper to
justify the arguement. I suppose I can quote you from your web page,
and not through an email. It is just that we have to have 5 different
sources and print them out.
At this point Karen burst into laughter. She had been terrified until this moment.
The problem is that I have already used
one web page as a source, and I thought an email would be a way to get
around using another web page source. I will figure it out though.
Thank you for your time.
Karen no longer could stand hearing anything about the case. It had so ruined their lives and their marriage. Just the idea that there were people out there who would do what these people did, doctors and nurses and lawyers . . . So, Aaron was in the habit of not saying anything when something was of concern. He waited until there was resolution and then decided whether or not to tell the story Usually he didn't.
This particular story, with the example of being raped in the hospital, and the unusual request of the person who wanted it emailed to her, worried Karen a lot. Till the line about needing five sources. Her laugh was a release of tension over finding out that this probably was an innocent person, not part of the ongoing scheming to cover up sins and crimes in medicine and court, but merely a freshman who did not understand that "five sources" did not necessarily mean that two of them could not be from books as long as they were from two different books. And two others from web sites as long as they were two different web sites. Although in this day and age, who knew. Maybe it did matter to that teacher.
Aaron emailed back to her the paragraphs she wanted:
Okay. I am interested in seeing people at universities explore your topic.
In fact, encouraging such debate had been the purpose of publishing that on the web.
So if I can do something to help with that, I will do what I
can. Below is the quote you requested in an email.
Psycho pharmaceuticals / psychiatric medications
Are we, as nation drugged, into complacency? Every time someone is depressed, they are given something that makes them not care. Isn’t caring, and caring desperately, what drives innovation and improvement? If you get raped in a hospital, everyone tells you to see a therapist, take a drug and get over it, rather than rise up and scream about a healthcare system that allowed that to be done to you, that continues to protect the miscreant who raped you (to avoid liability), and that fights you when you try to warn other patients about the predator working there. Shouldn't there be some thought given to social responsibility rather than just to personal comfort? Isn't pain and rage necessary to get people to fight hard enough to make a difference for the common good? What if the founding fathers had seen a therapist and taken drugs to calm down rather than write the Declaration of Independence?
Increasingly people say they need drugs to become normal. Is happiness normal? Is complacency normal? What happened to duty? Doesn't society deserve the benefit of your pain?
There are people who are born with no sense of pain. They don't live very long. Being aware of what hurts is essential to survival, both for the individual and the society. If we escape it through drugs when we hurt, are we not denying the society of a motive force essential for its own survival?
At the bottom of the email, he included the disclaimer from the web page.
When the audience already agrees, persuasion is not
necessary. These topics were chosen because people do not agree with them.
They are not the views of the author. They are thoughts about which audiences
might need to be persuaded.
However, in these times when political correctness is required, caution and wariness are important. The fact that a subject is included on this list does not imply that it either is safe or accurate. These persuasive speech topics are meant only as food for thought. Use your own judgment as to what to present to your audience.
This would never end. Just when he'd begin to think that perhaps Wiley and his friend, that sex maniac of a nurse, might finally have grown consciences, or at least a smidgen of humanity, they would assault again. Only this one time did a suspicion result in a laugh about someone's innocence rather than dismay about the relentlessness of the truly evil.
Places, events, and situations in this story are purely
Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, is coincidental.